Wednesday, November 30, 2011

Don't worry. Be happy.

Live for and in the moment.
Make the most of it.
Be colorful.
Be spontaneous.
Don't worry about tomorrow.
Don't be sad about yesterday.
Don't live with regrets.
Just do better then before.
Add color to others lives.
Love without fear.
Love unconditionally.
If your heart gets broken,
don't worry.
Someone will come along....
They'll pick up the pieces.
They'll put them back together.
And make it better then before.

The more I read, the more I love.

This is Meg.
And yeah, I'm a creeper.
I blog stalk her.
And she doesn't know me.

But she's a down to earth girl.
She tells it how it is.
She's not afraid to make things awkward.

And I love it.

Hey Meg,
Um... you're one of my heroes. :)
And not many get into that category.

Tuesday, November 29, 2011


I'm so ready.
To move out.
To move on.
I really am.

Monday, November 28, 2011

29 & 30.

Once again. Late. Oh well.
Day 29- Your aspirations.
I want to be a mom. :)
I want to go into medical school.
I want to help people.
I want to go amazing places, and do amazing things. :)
I'm going to go confidently in the direction of my dreams.

Day 30-One last moment.
Hmm.... One last moment.
Lying in your arms, with my head on your chest hearing your heart beat, hearing you breathe. and knowing that you love me.

One other thing for today.
I'm the big one seven.
Well, I guess not very big. I don't feel too old... but who knows.
Happy Birthday to me. :)

Cold Stone.

I take back what I said about birthday songs. At least for Cold Stone. :)
And a couple other people.

Saturday, November 26, 2011


Thursday was Thanksgiving.
I'm thankful for:
-My life
-The gospel
-My family
-That boy:)
-Warm bed
-Second chances
-Happy endings
-Trials to make me stronger
And lots and lots and lots of other things. :)

26, 27, and 28.

Once again behind.
But first. For the 25th day. I have another first. It happened yesterday at work. Well.... I passed out. Yup. But at least there was one of my managers there at the same time. Here's how our conversation went.
Me: *as I lean on the makeline* "Will you catch me if I pass out?"
Him: "Yeah, of course, just don't lock your knees."
Me: "Oh don't worry I'm not."
Then I was out. Apparently I fell towards him and yup, he caught me as promise. Good thing I'm not fat. :) haha.
After about 5 or so minutes I was fine. Pale for a while, but fine. Definitely a first.
26: My fears.
I don't like this one.
Maybe I'm a pansy, but oh well.
-Being forgotten.
-The dark.
-Losing those closest to me.
-Not being able to do all I can.
And there's more. But that's a few.
27: His arms. Or anywhere with him.
"They say Disneyland is the happiest place on earth. Apparently they've never been in your arms." :) True.
28: Something that you miss.
Hmmm.. I miss a lot of things. My brothers and sister. Sis and 2 bros-married. Other bro-college. I miss my dog... and my cat... :\
I miss the warmth. The feeling of spring.
I miss being in those arms of his, his smile, eyes, everything about him. (I know I'm twitterpated, okay??)
There's a few things that I miss...

Once again sorry about cramming all those days into one post.
I'm sure you'll forgive me.

On another note. Tonight was amazing.
Real steel to the Pizza Factory to Cold Stone.
But that's not what made it amazing.
It was the snuggs, and laughing so hard.
And having people hearing only parts of the conversation... and making it awkward for them.
What made it amazing was him. :)

Wednesday, November 23, 2011

A First.

Day 25.

PPT. Backflips.
Talk about crazy and scary.
I wouldn't believe I'd done it, and yes it took me forever to work up the guts.
But Mate was there, and he taught me.
It was a blast.
Definitely a first.


Day 24. Something that makes you cry.

Being alone.

Day 23.

Something that makes me feel better.

His hugs.
And kisses on the forehead.
Waves from strangers.
Love. :)

4 Days late. Whoops.

I'm sorry, I've had time to do this... but it just slipped my mind. I mean. come on. It's Thanksgiving Break. Hurrah!! :)

Day 22. Something that upset me.

Feeling inadequate.
Wanting to make things better, but not being able to.
Seeing pain in the eyes of those who least deserve it.

Saturday, November 19, 2011

So I'll curl up in my bed, wearing your clothes, and keep on missing you.....

Day 21. Another moment.

I'm not good at picking moments. There's so many.

Oh. I know. :)

The nervousness I saw in your eyes the the first time you held my hand.
The relief I saw in your eyes after you'd mustered the courage to do it.
And the love I saw in your eyes when you saw in my eyes that I wanted this just as much as you.

Friday, November 18, 2011

This month.

Day 20.
Well, November.
Today it's the 18th, so this month isn't over, but I'll give you a recap of the first part of this month, and [hopefully] how the rest will go. :)

Let's see....
Well, there's been school. Yay. I really am just ready to move on. Go to college, and just get to a new chapter in my life. I should've done things so that I could've graduated a year early.... :\
But I didn't. So I have another year. Lovely.

There's been basketball. I love basketball. LOVE it.
Even though... I'm not too good. That's alright.
I just have to say my one of my favorite parts in a game is when you get a fast break, and you can just take it all the way and sink it. Fabulous.

I have my first game today. Kinda nervous, and I don't usually get nervous. Mr. Haymond said he expects no less then 20 points from me. So.... I'm going to do mah best. Woot!

I've had work, but not as much, cause of ball and school. But it's fine.

I've been doing homework, working my butt of, making memories, playing with friends, ya know, the usual.

The REST of this month should be great. Today is the last day of school before 10 days off for Thanksgiving. I'm pretty dern excited. My brothers and sister and the other halfs are coming over, and even though Mike can't, I'm still excited. I get to see him in less then a month.
I'm going to catch up on some sleep next week, practice ball a TON, eat as much as I can, play lots, read, etc. It'll be fun.

And in 10 days, I'll be a whopping 17. So, that should be fun.

So, there's the gist of it. It seems like a boring life, but there's always those spontaneous, improv moments that make things amazing. And then there's that boy... who makes things spectacular. :)

Thursday, November 17, 2011

FACT: Wisdom teeth do not help you be more wise.

Mate got his wisdom teeth out today... he's not feeling to bad, but I'm hoping he doesn't swell, and that he can feel better soon.

His dad recorded him after he came to... and I just have to share this.

He asked his dad why he had all this gauze in his mouth. And when his dad replied, "Well, you keep chewing on it like it's gum."

Being Mason, and still kinda out of it he replied, "Gum tastes a hell of a lot better then this."

Oh Mason. How I love you. :)

Feel better.

Something I regret.

Day 19.
Ya know? I've done some really stupid things, that I have regretted, but I've moved on and am better then I was before.

So why would I share things that I'm over? I don't see the point.

Wednesday, November 16, 2011

Day 18. Favorite Birthday.

Believe it or not I'm very bipolar on this subject.
I mean there's always the awkward singing to you... at church, and school, and lunch, and your friends. The family singing isn't so bad... but still.
Then there's the whole... WHAT DO YOU WANT FOR YOUR BIRTHDAY?!?!
Don't get me wrong I love presents. But you're not going to be like, "Oh! How about you get me that perfume at Bath and Body Works!" or "I really liked that shirt at urban trends..." you just don't do that. And even if you told them what you wanted... would they really get it for you?

Except for Cyn. But that was different.. she kinda asked if I wanted a certain thing for my birthday, and I said sure!

But that's beside the point.
Anyways... I've been rambling... so I should probably get on to my favorite birthday.

Well, when I was like 9 or something my dad made homemade corn dogs, which were fabulous.
One time I went ice skating...
But you know, last year.. it wasn't on my birthday, it was the day before, but it was so great it could've been my real birthday.
I know I'm always going on and on about him, but really? He makes all my days smile.
And, like no exception, he made this day smile as well, but smile EXTRA big.
It really is the little things... like the first time he held my hand, put his arm around me, and kissed my on the cheek...
Yah, he's cute like that.

That birthday was great. :)

Oh, and I can't forget to mention that on my actual birthday 2 of my friends from my ward showed up with a piece of cake with 1 candle... and sang feliz cumpleaƱos to me. It was classic.

I'm excited for my 18th, because then I can buy dry ice. Yes, I do live on the edge. :)

Yeah, right now I like birthdays. :)

Tuesday, November 15, 2011


Day 17.
How do I pick a favorite memory?
WELL. One of my favorite memories...
Was over a year ago.
In August.
Me and Mate were bored so we decided to go to a park.
:)And we played.
We pretty much dominated against those dern wasps.
Then... it started to rain.. :)
So we had to take cover under a slide...
but I still got soaked.
So we went in a slide..
And we talked and laughed
We asked what if's and
Just enjoyed those moments.

"Never forget to notice the small things in life, because those are the things that can pick us up and keep us going." :)

Monday, November 14, 2011

I just had to share.

Today Britt had lemonade.
I decided to take a drink.
It tasted like skunky throw up.
Talk about nasty.

And then at lunch she choked really bad... it was kinda sad... but kinda amusing.

:)Love ya Britt.

Sometimes I just can't smile.

You say don't cry,
and the tears run down my face like fire on ice.
And I need a miracle.

But my miracle is you...

Day 16. My favorite Quote.

I have so many quotes that I love. But one that's stood out to me today was this one:

"And to all who suffer—all who feel discouraged, worried, or lonely—I say with love and deep concern for you, never give in.

Never surrender.

Never allow despair to overcome your spirit.

Embrace and rely upon the the Hope of Israel, for the love of the Son of God pierces all darkness, softens all sorrow, and gladdens every heart."

-President Dieter F. Uchtdorf

Take what you need. The Lord will give it all if you turn to him and ask.

Sunday, November 13, 2011

Go confidently in the direction of your dreams.

Day 15.
I'm giong to be someone who saves peoples lives, helps them get better, and be happy.
Someday I'm gonna be that person who anyone feels comfortable around.
Someday I'm gonna marry him.
I'll have a family.
Someday I'll have it all, because I'll have you. :)


Because if you dream it and believe it, it can happen.

Saturday, November 12, 2011


Day 14. Who is my hero?

My Savior. He's saved me from myself, and all my pains and sorrows. He's my light house.

These two men right here. My uncle and cousin. They've spent so much time to serving our country and risking their lives.

These two guys as well.
I've never met the first, but I've seen him in my life. He's helped me grow and has given me strength through others. I've even felt his arms around me when I've felt lonely.
And the other guy has taught me how to be strong, caring, kind, and loving. He's loved me when I've least deserved it.

There's so many more... my papi-for all he's given me. My grandpas- for lessons learned. The prophet-for truth shown.

I love the heroes in my life.

Friday, November 11, 2011

11/11/11 What a day.

Day 13: This week.
This week has been crazy and tiring.
I've had basketball practice, yw's, etc.
But the moments that stand out the most are the little amounts of time that I got with him.
Because of wrestling season, basketball season, work, and school... those moments are usually few and far between. And I hate it.
But when I'm in that moment.... it's complete happiness. I see him for 3 seconds and my day is so much brighter... the moments he holds me in his arms and whispers "I love you" are the moments I'll treasure always.
I know this isn't a very good description of this week...
But the small moments that stand out and matter most are the moments I have with him.
I love you.

Thursday, November 10, 2011

Because I love you.

Just so you know... if you ever take the time to read this... I love you.
Every part.


Day 12. What is in my bag??
Well. The usual.
About 50 chapsticks and 10 lipglosses.
A small pack of tissues (cause it seems whenever I cry I don't have ANY).
Gum. At least 2 kinds.
Loose change.
A couple papers.
A pen.
A couple cough drops.
And when I go somewhere and take it... there's ipod, phone, and batman wallet. :)

Wednesday, November 9, 2011

Day 11. The sibs. (Warning. Picture Overload)

These are not necessarily in order. And there will prolly be more then one pic of some siblings. Enjoy.

Alright. This is me with Nichole (she might as well be my sister) and my baby brother Tom. I just wanted a funny picture or Tom. Sorry I look like a goob.

Me and Mike. So cute.

Yahh.... this is just me. I was a cute baby.

Brother. He's lookin studly after playing basketball, and then when you look at me you wanna barf. Glad to know I got the attractive genes.

Aw. Birthdays. Em's 21 I think. We have yours truly, then my wee sis Rachel, then lil Tom, Em her self, her now husband Chris, Mike, and Sam. Presh. (And the guy at another of her birthday's.. was an ex.. from a while ago. Sorry.)

This is my oldest brother. Also named Chris. I don't really have any pictures of me and him together... but we're BEST friends. I think he looks like he could be a bad guy in Sherlock Holmes or something. He was having fun with his facial hair that day.

Me and Mike again. This was at our birthday party. He turned 18, and I turned 16. (Notice the ADORABLE pictures of me when I was just a wee one :) ).

This is me with Emily, and my sis-in-law Kira. Oh how I love these girls. Kira and I are A LOT alike. Like you wouldn't even believe it. :) And Em and I sometimes look like twins. No biggie.

Me ad Em again. I like this picture even though I look like a DORK.

Oh. Me and brother. This is definitely a favorite. BECAUSE we were playing Mary and Joseph... and as you can tell I am very holy. :)

What can I say? Swimsuit models.

Upside down is the way to do it.
(And yes, I'm aware that it looks like we're right side up, BUT we are actually upside down... about 70 ft. down on an 180 ft cliff.)

Here's the one I was talking about with the ex.... but ANYWAYS.
I LOVE LOVE LOVE This picture.
Because James' (my 2nd oldest brother. hilarious.) hair is messed up like he just woke up. Rachel looks like a pooping child or something. Sam looks like an orphan (he's my younger brother right under me). Tom looks like he's high (youngest brother. so cute). Em has a gimp eye, and I look like I'm constipated. Awkward family photos here we come.

Me and gorgeous sis at her college grad.

Me and brother at BYU vs Utah football game.

And this is my other sister in law. She's quite fabulous, very witty, and can get anyone to laugh.

And there you have it folks. I have THE BEST siblings. :)

Tuesday, November 8, 2011

You are what you eat.

Just kidding. I just needed a clever title.
Day 10-What you wore today.
Well.... since I go to a private school I got to wear my uniform! YAY! ...*sarcasm*... well it's really not all that bad... skirt, polo, etc... EXCEPT. This morning I got hot cocoa... and well... I ALWAYS spill on myself when I get hot cocoa... and I had a white shirt on. GREAT. So I had to button my sweater up like ALL THE WAY.
Three hurrahs for nerds! *hurrah* *hurrah* *hurrah*
Anyways. I got home, had to go to work... so I got to wear the good ol work clothes.
I'm still in them now except for I'm wearing a hoodie over my undershirt.
I'll go shower in a few and then go change into some of [his:)] pj pants and t-shirt. [he's given me lots:)]
It will be wonderful.

On another note.. Thanks to Katie's blog... I've decided my room is FAR to dull darling. So. I'm gonna have fun in [hopefully] creative ways. :)

Sunday, November 6, 2011

When life gets too hard to stand, kneel.

Day 9. My beliefs.
I'm a member of the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-day Saints.
I'm not afraid to share who I am or what I believe.
I know I'm a child of Heavenly Father who has divine potential, and that He loves me.
I know that Joseph Smith restored the gospel and I know that we have a living prophet on the earth today, and he is God's mouthpiece.
I know the Book of Mormon is true, that it is the record of the people who lived here on America.
I know that Christ suffered and died for everyone's sins, including my own, so that if we repent we can return to live with him again. I know that three days after he died, he was risen, and set a path for us.
I know I can have eternal life, and live with my family forever.
I know that if I stay faithful, following in Christ's footsteps I can become like him, and have the opportunities that he has. I can become all that he has in store for me.

Saturday, November 5, 2011

Never Stop Loving.

Day 8? A moment.

The first time you told me you loved me and meant it truly like that.
I remember it perfectly.
It plays over and over in my head.
And I love it. :)

Friday, November 4, 2011

7? My Best Friend :)

Peace Like A River

Ultimately, He is my best friend. I can't even tell you how many times He's been there to lift me back up off my feet.
He's my lighthouse.
He's everything, because without Him I am nothing.

Thursday, November 3, 2011

6: My interesting day.

Well, today was... jut normal.
It consisted of getting up early and going to school, and then going home from school.
After school I went to see a boy... :) yeah, that boy. :)
Then I went to the stores looking for presents (for my little sister and a friend, both birthdays today). I was a dipstick though, and forgot my wallet, so I went and got my papi, and then went back to the store.
Then I went home and had a fabulous dinner, along with cake.
Then I've been figuring out some stuff out for school which is absolutely fabulous. Not.
Anyways... I'll prolly go find something to eat, do some homework, shower, read scriptures, and then go to bed.
I'm kinda looking forward to tomorrow. Yay for Fridays.

Wednesday, November 2, 2011

Day 5. My definition of love.

This is kinda a perfect day to have this.

Yesterday I was at the store.
I was looking for something when this older couple came walking down the aisle. He had his arm playfully around her neck, and they were talking and laughing like they were two teenagers in love. As they walked by I heard her laughing say, "Babe, is there anything else we need?"
It was seriously SOOO cute.
And I thought, "That, right there is love. I'm gonna have love like that when I'm old."

Little kids definition of love.
“When my grandmother got arthritis, she couldn’t bend over and paint her toenails anymore. So my grandfather does it for her all the time, even when his hands got arthritis too. That’s love.” Rebecca- age 8
“When someone loves you, the way they say your name is different. You just know that your name is safe in their mouth.” Billy – age 4

“Love is when a girl puts on perfume and a boy puts on shaving cologne and they go out and smell each other.” Karl – age 5

“Love is when you go out to eat and give somebody most of your French fries without making them give you any of theirs.” Chrissy – age 6

“Love is what makes you smile when you’re tired.” Terri – age 4

“Love is when you kiss all the time. Then when you get tired of kissing, you still want to be together and you talk more. My Mommy and Daddy are like that. They look gross when they kiss” Emily – age 8

“Love is what’s in the room with you at Christmas if you stop opening presents and listen.” Bobby – age 7

“If you want to learn to love better, you should start with a friend who you hate,” Nikka – age 6
(we need a few million more Nikka’s on this planet)

“Love is when you tell a guy you like his shirt, then he wears it everyday.” Noelle – age 7

“Love is like a little old woman and a little old man who are still friends even after they know each other so well.” Tommy – age 6

“During my piano recital, I was on a stage and I was scared. I looked at all the people watching me and saw my daddy waving and smiling. He was the only one doing that. I wasn’t scared anymore.” Cindy – age 8

“My mommy loves me more than anybody . You don’t see anyone else kissing me to sleep at night.” Clare – age 6

“Love is when Mommy gives Daddy the best piece of chicken.” Elaine-age 5

“Love is when Mommy sees Daddy smelly and sweaty and still says he is handsomer than Robert Redford.” Chris – age 7

“Love is when your puppy licks your face even after you left him alone all day.” Mary Ann – age 4

“When you love somebody, your eyelashes go up and down and little stars come out of you.” (what an image) Karen – age 7

“Love is when Mommy sees Daddy on the toilet and she doesn’t think it’s gross.” Mark – age 6

“You really shouldn’t say ‘I love you’ unless you mean it. But if you mean it, you should say it a lot. People forget.” Jessica – age 8

Author and lecturer Leo Buscaglia once talked about a contest he was asked to judge. The purpose of the contest was to find the most caring child. The winner was a four year old child whose next door neighbor was an elderly gentleman who had recently lost his wife. Upon seeing the man cry, the little boy went into the old gentleman’s yard, climbed onto his lap, and just sat there. When his Mother asked what he had said to the neighbor, the little boy said, “Nothing, I just helped him cry.”

My definition of love is all of these, and so much more. When someone wants someone else's happiness above their own, and would do anything to get that, that is love. :)

Love is when he looks at me and smiles, or tells me to never stop being beautiful.

Tuesday, November 1, 2011

Day 4. What I ate today. :)

I liked this one... and I like food too. :)

Well... Breakfast consisted on some Cheerios and Rice Milk. (The rice milk is due to some food allergies I have. Lovely. So... the things I get to eat now... are a wee bit different sometimes.)

Lunch was beef stew that my mom made, which was fabulous. I also had some grapes and pecans, and some bread, and a couple bites of Britt's food.

Then after school I had a couple Reeses. Yum.

Dinner was Fettucini, which was also fab, and made with rice noodles. Pretty good my friends.

Then I had a kit kat and a twix. Chocolate is always good.
That's it for so far today, but I will probably eat more before the night is through. :)

Day 3- The Parents

There's gonna be 2 posts today... cause I was occupied yesterday with Halloween. You understand.

So the parents.
Well. I love my daddy and mommy. They are amazing, and do so much for me.
My dad has a very sarcastic sense of humor which sometimes gets him in trouble with my mom. It's funny.
Both my parents enjoy my sense of humor (I mean come on, who doesn't? ;) ).
My daddy was born in California, my mommy in Georgia. And they ended up here in Utah.
I love it here, except the winter. And Snow. Bleh.
But ANYWAYS. Yes. Parents.
They're awesome.
They've shared their testimonies with me, and always help me grow. They love me and are so giving. I have some good laughs with them too.
A little bit before lately I kinda just... well, wasn't appreciating them as much as I should have. But I've been kinda stupid and am doing my best to do better. Obedience is best, FYI.
Today in one class we started talking about our parents... for my mom the word that came to mind was patience. My dad's was Service. Although those are both exchangeable. And there are so many more word that I could use for them. I love them so much, and they help me so much. I really am so very grateful for their testimonies of the gospel, their love for it, and for me.

And I really wasn't adopted... even though I really don't look like them. :)