Sunday, January 29, 2012

Oh hey there.

I love awkward moments.

Like last night.
I was at work and there was this guy there (who is pretty new) and I've only worked with him once.
We were in the middle of a rush, and I was on my way to clear off part of the screen.
THEN I butt swiped him. (I promise I didn't do it on purpose).
My automatic reaction was this, "I'm sorry I didn't mean to butt swipe you!!"
Him, "Oh.. it's okay.."
The poor kid.
Meh oh well.
He prolly liked it anyways. Juuuust kidding.

Thursday, January 26, 2012

As Promised.

You make me wanna buy a rose, you make me wanna shine my shoes. Baby you make me wanna dance better then I do. You make me wanna be a man who makes you laugh and makes you cry, wanna be everything you need. You make me wanna make you love me.

You make me wanna buy a ring, you make me wanna put you first. You make me wanna talk to God even when I'm not at church. You make me wanna be a man who makes you laugh and makes you cry, wanna be everything you need. You make me wanna make you love me...

If a boy felt this way about me...

Every time.

Every time. Every time it gets me.
I almost cry whenever I look at this picture.

Thank you.

To every single person who has served America, thank you.

Dancing away with my heart...

Don't it always seem to go that you don't know what you've got till it's gone?
I knew what I had.
Maybe that's why it's worse.
Knowing what you had.... Knowing EXACTLY what you had.
And then losing it.


"For me you'll always be 18, and beautiful, and dancing away with my heart..." (If you haven't heard that song, go look it up. It's wonderful. Away With My Heart—Lady Antebellum)

Sometimes things happen... that set off the pain again.
Dang flabbit.

On the bright side... January is almost over... huzzah! But seriously. Let's celebrate.
There's this other song that is absolutely adorable, that I've fallen in love with, and don't worry. I will post it soon.
I felt like doing a shout out to this girl <---- Right there.
Her name's Lexxi.
I don't think she knows it, but she's an example to me, and her words give me hope. Thanks a million. :)

Tuesday, January 24, 2012

And it was beautiful.

Me. Chelle.
I HATE snow.
Anyone who really knows me, knows that.
But last night on my way home, which really was much snow, so little vision, bleh... but I was almost home.
The road was wet at my house, not yet covered with the white stuff, and as I approached the stoplight it was beautiful.
The night sky was dark and still, the road wet—which reflected the green and red lights off of the pavement.. it would have made a MARVELOUS picture.
BUT. I didn't have my camera, and plus it would've been a little weird to be standing in the middle of a highway intersection taking pictures.. of a road.
I probably would've gotten hit anyways.

But, I promise I'll get a picture like it. Hopefully it will be warm, and in the summer.
I love summer rain. And spring rain. Winter please end.
I want to be able to get out, take pictures, not have life be so insanely crazy.
I'm giddy just thinking about it. :)
I cannot wait for the Spring.

You know how people are always thinking about what they want to be remembered by? Or how they want to be described?
If I could be described... I'd take the words from Train.

"She acts like summer and walks like rain.
Listens like Spring and talks like June."

I'm going to work on that. :)

Monday, January 23, 2012

Yes. I can.

Tell me that I can't, and I'll show you that I can.

Hah. You see that? Yes I can. It doesn't matter that I went to bed at midnight and then had to get up at 5:30. It doesn't matter that I have things going on every single night, and that my life is busier then it's ever been.
I can do it.
I can have a good attitude.
I can be happy.
It's my choice. :)

This was cute so I thought I'd share it. (Sorry if I've already shared it before).

Saturday, January 21, 2012



Because I wish I was pretty like her.

Because you were [are] the best at this.

Because it's true.

Just replace "she" with "he"..

Because I thought this was cute.

"Love is not just about finding the right person, but creating a relationship. It's no about how much love you have in the beginning, but how much love you have till the end."

Because I hate that silence. :/

Because right now... all I want is to be happy like this.

And this.

Kinda a off night. Had to go through some things that I really didn't like.

Another one.

Pretty sure he will be just another boy who I made feel awkward only because I was being myself and saying hi because he was new.
Sometimes I really think there's something wrong with me.
Madison said that he was just intimidated.
Carlynn said that he just looked awkward, almost like he needed to get away.
Pretty sure that he thinks I'm a freak.
Good one Chelle, good one.
Golf clap for that.

Wednesday, January 18, 2012


Yes, I hope that title sparked your interests. I decided to post some confessions. Some good, some not so good. I'm sure there will be more later as well.

#1. Sometimes I live with regrets. (Not awful ones for things I've done, but like ex. wishing I'd held him tighter and longer when I had the chance.)

*WARNING* I just realized this might get a little personal. So, just be aware. Don't judge.

#2. I have a nasty habit of biting the inside of my cheek until it gets really bad and hurts. (I just caught myself doing it. Dang it.)

#3. Sometimes I have the sudden urge to brush my teeth. This happens quite frequently actually.

#4. I hate the winter

#5. Sometimes I have really bad OCD.

#6. Sports bras are the best. Too bad I can't really wear them hardly at all. (I get cold easily. Not to make things awkward or anything.)

#7. I should be sleeping right now, but I'm not.

#8. Every night at midnight I go and drink straight from the carton of milk. Just kidding. But I wish I did that.

#9. I suck at doing my laundry. Whenever I get around to it there's like 3 loads to do, and then I usually don't fold them for a while.

#10. My tongue gets burnt really easily. It's no bueno.

#11. I still hurt over things that happened over a month ago. Don't think I'm getting over that one..

#12. I often fall asleep wearing his clothes.

That's all the confessions for tonight unless you count this one.

"People are people and sometimes we change our minds, but it's killing me to see you go after all this time.... and I can't breathe without you, but I have to..."

Good one Taylor Swift. You've once again nailed it. You said the feelings of a teenage girl perfectly.

Tuesday, January 17, 2012

Because I'm blessed.

“I will go before your face. I will be on your right hand and on your left, … my Spirit shall be in your [heart], and mine angels round about you, to bear you up.” D&C 84:88

"We are not alone in our little prisons here. When suffering, we may in fact be nearer to God than we’ve ever been in our entire lives. That knowledge can turn every such situation into a would-be temple." -Elder Jeffrey R. Holland

How true those quotes are, and how blind we are. When in the middle of a trial, like in the poem footprints, we look back, seeing only one set and think that they are our own, and that we've been forsaken. How untrue that is. It's so hard to see the good in the middle of hurting, and most times we are only blinding ourselves. Just take a step back, look at it from a bigger perspective. Pray to an all knowing God, and even though you won't know how exactly, you WILL receive the confirmation and know that it will all work out.

"Sometimes good things fall apart so that even better things can fall together."
Right now I'm just hoping and wishing that my even better thing will be the same, just in the future at a better time. But I'm not so scared anymore, because I KNOW that either way, it will all work out.
Don't live your life holding onto something that you can't have, it just bears you down. Let it go, things will work out. You'll feel so much better. You'll be able to breathe again.

A church leader (but I don't know which one, and can't find it right now, sorry) said something to this effect, "The greatest battles that we will ever fight will be in the chambers of our own souls." It's a daily battle, and we can let our hearts fail us.

"Hard as things seem today, they will be better the next day if you choose to serve the Lord THIS day. The other promise I make to you is that by choosing to serve Him this day you will feel his love, and grow to love him more..." Pres. Henry B. Eyring.

"It's not about your scars, it's all about your heart." -Mindy Gledhill

Why hello there, winter.

Today... it was time for school. I go outside... and just gross.
Because of the lovely canyon by which I live (and it usually is pretty an all that)... but because of the canyon it was windy. REALLY windy.
AND the fact that it was only 6 degrees outside was just disgusting.
It's the kind of cold outside that when you walk outside and if there's any trace of snot (that really is a gross word) in your nose, then it freezes. And your nose just feels weird.

Yesterday was a rough day. I have a way of taking bad things and making them worse. I'm REALLY good at it. Really good.

Today I just feel like face palming myself.
I'm the biggest goober, and am feeling really frumpy today.


Right now I either just wanna scream, cry, or laugh. Or all at the same time. I feel like that would be a good idea.

I really don't like winter and it just needs to be spring already. At least there's only 3 days of school this week. ..

Sunday, January 15, 2012


I hate the feeling that it seems that you're just slowly forgetting me.

Friday, January 13, 2012

Sometimes I feel weird about life.

Sometimes I make rash decisions.

Sometimes I accidently drop my contact down the sink.

Sometimes I score 23 points in a game, including a three, and feel really good about life.

Sometimes with the sometimes just above this one I get really sore, and kinda hurt myself.. oh well.

Sometimes the stars are so bright, and they remind me of you and so many memories.

Sometimes I make fun of manikins and their extremely awkward poses.

Sometimes I'm really happy about life.

All the time:
I'm wanting to do better for you.
You're always on my mind.
I want to be happy.

And most important all the time.
I love you.

Thursday, January 12, 2012


Come back, come back, come back to me like you would if this was a movie.... baby what about the ending?

I feel like it was really awkward that I was on the phone with my choir teacher at 10 last night. (Stupid choir computer assignment. I'm already technologically impaired!)

Thank goodness for beef jerky sticks. Those are the things that get me through the end of the semester.

Dear little boy who ran into chemistry class yesterday, tripped over a chair, made a sound similar to a duck, and ran out yelling, "I'm okay! I'm OKAY!!!" ... you made my day.

Your beautiful eyes, stare right into mine... and sometimes I think of you late at night, I don't know why...

Last night I had a dream that I was in California, and there were three attractive males, who were flirting up a storm with me. And then there was a kid I know there. I got kissed by 2 different guys. One Californian, then other the guy that I know. I guess I can't say it was a bad dream.... just a very very interesting... weird dream. But at least California was warm. :)

I feel like it's funny that when I woke up this morning my hair looked similar to that of a clown with an afro. What an adventure.

I'm pretty sure I'm so tired that everything is funny. But seriously.

I was told yesterday by a guy that I have a good shot. Made me feel good. :)

Wednesday, January 11, 2012

Because I can. :)

Here's some more random pictures, thoughts, etc.


:) Aww yes. The classic glue move. A definite favorite.

I don't want this. I NEED this. If you love me...

:) Everyday man. EVERY SINGLE DAY.

This was just adorable.

I love this kind of cookies. I really want one right now.

Tis true.

Ya got that??

This is so very very very true for me. :)
I'm an epic dancer/singer when I'm home alone.

Someday I will do my eye make up like this.

"When I met you my definition of perfect changed."

There you have it.

Now. Life. School.... is... school=bleh. Ready to be out.
Basketball.. I can not get enough. I could play a game every single day and not get tired of it. I love love love that sport.
Work. That's always interesting. Amusing.
Every thing else... yup.

Sometimes I just wish that things would not be so crazy, that things wouldn't hurt so much, they'd at least be easier to get over, or at least come to grips with. Cause it's hard.

OH! So the other day I was at a bus stop and some guy (mid 20's probably) was turning a corner and he basically ran over the curb. And he had seen me look over. He knew I'd seen him do it. So what do you do in a situation like that? Well, I'll tell you what he did. He pulled a dorky face and gave me a thumbs up. I gladly returned the thumbs up. Dear stranger, for being able to not get mad at the curb, for being able to laugh it off, I commend you. You also made my day better. Thank you.

Happy Wednesday!

Monday, January 9, 2012

Just make sure you're running in the right direction.

That's good advice. Given from a friend just barely.
Right direction. Right.
Which way is the right direction?

I have no idea.

Sunday, January 8, 2012


Sometimes I'm just worn out.
I wish I could stop having awful dreams, and be able to sleep more.

I want it to be warm. And sunny.
Please Spring, come.

I wish my tummy would stop hurting whenever I eat.

Alright. I'm done complaining.

Life is beautiful. You just have to find your happy, and hold on tight.

Friday, January 6, 2012

For Fun. :)

Here are some pictures. Just Because.


Aww... they love each other.

Tell that to a girl, and you'll get brownie points for sure.

This too. :)

Um.. I feel like he's awesome.

This is so so so very true.


This guy is just too cool for words.

I'm gonna have these at my wedding reception I decided..

Very True.

I want shoes like this.

I know these were all super random... But I wanted to share... :)

Thursday, January 5, 2012

Baby fist pump.

Yeah, don't worry. It's okay.
Yesterday in basketball I was with my dear friend Britt. Just coming back from Christmas break... we were feeling a little pudgy.
But that's beside the point.
When you work hard your heart pumps. Who knew?
And right below my ribs I could feel my heart beating when I put my hand there. Thinking it was something worth sharing, I was like, "Hey Britt. You can feel my heart beating. Feel."
Being Britt, she replied, "No, that's your baby... fist pumping."

Pretty amusing.
So. I decided that when I'm a mom, and gonna have a baby... I'm gonna listen to some fist pumping music, like black and yellow, or something like that.. just to see if my child will fist pump.

I'm keeping my hopes up. It'll be great.

*Switch to completely different subject*
I've only had 3 energy drinks in my life. Red Bull, Monster, then one other weird one that Ammon gave me at a dance. Not a bid d.
But I think it might be bad... that I crave those sometimes. I haven't had one since like September. And I don't even think that they taste very good, but I guess I crave them because I want to have energy.
From the ones I've drank, I don't even think they work very well either.
Maybe I crave them because I want them to work.
Darn you caffeine.
Why you no work very well for me most of the time?

Anyways. :)

Wednesday, January 4, 2012

La la la

La la la
It doesn't matter.
La la la
Oh well.

I woke up with a strange tattoo. Not sure how I got it, not a dollar in my pocket... but it kinda looks just like you. Mixed with Zack Galifianakis. HAH!

Yeah... I don't even know where that came from either.
It just happened.

I'm just in a good mood.
A VERY good one.

Sometimes all you need to do is let go. Give it all. And just be happy.
Be crazy. Keep people guessing. Keep people smiling.

It's fun. Try it.
Play like you're 6.

Do what you can to make others happy.
It'll help you be happy yourself.

Tuesday, January 3, 2012

I want a love like this.

I almost cried. I couldn't even take it.

Two Years from Hailey Haugen on Vimeo.

SAVE THE DATE from Hailey Haugen on Vimeo.


Happy New Year!!!

The 2012.

Seriously though. I don't even know what to do.

New year. New goals.
Some goals of mine are:
-Read the Book or Mormon
-Go on lots of adventures
-Be happy all the days (so basically it will be Happyville.)
-Love like crazy
-Discover new things
-Do things that I want to do

And there's more... but those are the ones I could think of off the bat.

It seems like 2011's theme was, "What doesn't kill you makes you stronger." I feel like it chose itself. Honestly? It was hard.
SO, I decided on 2012's theme before it could decide itself. I decided on, "Smile. Because it's worth it, because you deserve it."
It's gonna be a good year. A really good one.

Even though I'm already exhausted... it's all good. :)

Haha... honestly? I don't know if I'm ready for a whole new year, oh well. I'll just wing it.