Saturday, March 10, 2012
Who am I trying to kid?
Last night I heard my own heart beating, sounded like footsteps on my stairs. Six months gone and I'm still reaching even though I know you're not there.
My nightmares now consist of me losing you... over and over and over again.
Then I wake up... and you're really gone.
Sometimes I wish you could see a little piece of how much it hurts... every single day.
Like crashing cars I'll never get over you...
It feels like this is where I'm headed..
and I'm terrified.
I'm living in a constant nightmare.
If someone asked me if my heart was broken I'd say, "No. It's shattered."
Nothing in my life has meant as much to me as you.
What am I holding onto?
Something that's not there anymore.
You are important to me. That's why being without you is killing me.