Saturday, May 26, 2012

If I'm louder..

Better get used to smelling like chlorine.

Summer. 2012. HALLELUJAH.

I really do have to get used to smelling like chlorine though. Pretty sure that's what's going to come with working at a pool, being a lifeguard, having a 7 peaks pass, and more then 3 swimsuits.

Needless to say I'm a little more then thrilled.
Even though the weather is kinda crappy right now, it's only going to get warmer, the sun is only going to shine brighter, and my skin is only going to get more tan.  (You thought I was going to say tanner. HAH.)
And not to mention the summer nights..
But that's the only thing that I'm a little wary about...
I already know they won't be as good as last summers, how could they? :\
But I'll make them the best I can.

I'm gonna create a bucket list, and do everything on it.
:) It'll be great.

Summer 2012? I'm coming for you.

It's going to be one big adventure.
You want to come with me? :)

Sunday, May 20, 2012

Stop Passing Me By.

You've got it, you can be right. You were right.

Let's go back and find the light.

"I turn the lights down low, walk these halls alone.. we can feel so far from so close.."

Stop passing me by. Please.

Think. Listen. Love.

I'm learning. All over again.

-It's in your hands.
-I'm always still here.

"You know, sometimes all you need is twenty seconds of insane courage. Just literally twenty seconds of just embarrassing bravery. And I promise you, something good will come out of it."

Friday, May 18, 2012

No Reins.

Find a feel good song.
One that makes you feel free, one that makes you feel that you can make it through by being you.

No fear. No fences. Nobody. No Reins.

Funny enough I felt.. I always feel more free when I'm with you. A lot less tied down.
But what am I supposed to do?

I need to live.
But I have to wait.
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I'll prove everyone wrong.
I'll remind you.
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I'm not defined by anyone. I won't be held back, but I'll keep holding on at the same time.
I won't settle for anything less then the best.
I already know what the best is.

Thursday, May 17, 2012

Beautifully Broken.

This is for you. And all that you are.
Thank you.
I break down even though I'm still strong.

And even though sometimes we don't really talk much, your strength keeps me going.
Because I know that in spite of everything you still believe in me.
It's a reflection of you, remember? You taught me how to be those things. :)

And I'll still catch you when you fall..
And scrawl these words upon your wall, remind you to believe.
And if the world has worn you down, I'll be waiting.
So please come home.

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Worth the wait. A million times over.

Wednesday, May 16, 2012

The problem is.

I just wrote a really long blog post.
But I can't post it.
Because I'm afraid I'll regret it, and I already regret enough.
I don't want certain eyes to see how much is hurts sometimes.

All I know is.. all those fairy tales were full of it.

Silence is a girls loudest cry.
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It's just been one of those nights.

Tuesday, May 15, 2012

Be your own kind of limitless.

15 things you should give up to be happy.
Unfortunately I'm not very good at very many of these.
But it sure is something to work on.
Have a look.

Remember. You are only as brilliant, amazing, gorgeous, handsome, or wonderful as you imagine yourself to be. So often it's all caught up on someone else.
"If I only had clothes like hers.."
"If only my face could be as pretty as hers..."
"If only I had that [insert some item here].."
No. Just stop. Stop.

Why do you always compare yourself to others? Why do you try so hard to be like others?
Why do you do that when God created you to be you? There is no one else like you. Not now, not never.
No one else can have the effect that you can have. No one else can smile like you.
Stop pretending. Start being.

It doesn't matter what they say, they don't know you anyway.
Be you because no one else is better qualified.

Face your fears. Learn to be fearless. Be limitless.

"Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond belief. It is our light, not our darkness that most frightens us. We ask ourselves, who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented, fabulous? Actually, who are you not to be? You are a child of God. Your playing small does not serve the world. There is nothing enlightened about shrinking so that other people won't feel insecure around you. We are all meant to shine, as children do. We were born to make manifest the glory of God that is within us. It's not just in some of us; it's in everyone. And as we let our own light shine, we unconsciously give other people permission to do the same. as we are liberated from our own fear, our presence automatically liberates others."

Who are you NOT to be??
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Hold on.

Look into his eyes, and believe again.

Behind My Smile.

1. Skip to 0:40.
2. Press Play.
3. Stop thinking for a few minutes.
4. Just listen.
5. Don't worry.
6. Who's the person behind your smile?
7. Do what you can to make them smile. Do what you can to be the reason your eyes sparkle. Give all you can and then some more. . . because there might come a day where they're further away then you would like.

Monday, May 14, 2012

Just go run.

I felt it all crashing down on me. Again. You know the suffocating feeling?
And for no good reason, or for every good reason, you feel like you're going to cry?
I had that. Really bad.
I also had (still have) 2 papers to finish and a math lesson to do..
So I decided to go running.
Even though I knew it would hurt every step.
Since that rollover I haven't really done much physically.. I wanted to focus on fixing my neck, and my sprained hip. (That just sounds awkward. Sprained hip? Goody.)
Plus my new fun wound which is right by my hip so every time I move it hurts..
(It's sideways, but isn't that lovely?  Notice the bruising too.. So much fun.)

So yeah. I ran. And it hurt. But I loved it, and I just got away from it all for a moment.
Although that moment was really all too short..

And sometimes all I want is to be that little girl again. Lost in those perfect beautiful moments that were made up of just you and me.


Is that too much to ask?