Ever have those times where you just have like nothing to say?
Well, actually you have everything to say, explain, talk about, ask for, etc... but have no way to say it?
When you need to tell someone something, more then you've ever needed to tell anyone anything before, because you don't want to be too late? But no matter how you say it, or if you try it will just not work? Because they've heard it before and you just can't break through.
Even if you are too late, even if they've told you you're too late and you still just have to keep trying? Because you just hold onto hope? Because you just have to hold on?
I guess like Atticus from To Kill a Mockingbird said, "[Courage] is knowing you're licked before you begin but you begin anyway and you see it through no matter what."
It's like running into a cement wall. Over and over and over again. And people think you're crazy and stupid and they tell you to stop and give up because you just keep hurting yourself. But then there's that hope, that voice that says, "Maybe this time when you hit it it will break. Maybe this time you'll get through. Maybe this time he'll listen, he'll understand. Maybe this time he'll see that you mean everything you say and that you love him and that you will never make a mistake like that ever again. Maybe this time he'll give you another chance."
Used to know, used to feel, used to be.
I just hold onto that "maybe this time."
Maybe this time, love. Maybe this time. :)
You're like an Indian Summer in the middle of winter..